Spiritual perspective for decision making
Right now, in my life, I am standing at the crossroads. Trying to choose, from two very different paths I see in front of me. Deep down I sense and know already which one is correct, but for some reason, my ego has been struggling with the acceptance.
Out of these two paths, one was what I had planned, calculated, chosen with my mind already ages ago. The other one just arrived, came from my deep wishes and touched my heart deeper – but that one would require more out of me than the one that I already had chosen.
John Lennon used to say “ life is what happens to you while you are busy making other plans”. I never fully got his quote, until now. Oh boy, have I been busy with planning and controlling. My actions eventually pushed me away from the abundant flow of life and only until I stepped out of the controlling – zone, I started to receive and the new path opened up for me.
That’s how the Universe works. It does deliver to you everything and anything you want and need. You just need to ask, create space to receive, and let go of the details of “how”, “when”, “what”. Usually, the Universe delivers to you something much better than what you planned.
When it delivered me this new path, my ego stepped in, and it was wearing fear as a coat of protection. I went quiet and took distance from my loved ones. I went closer to them, hoping they would tell me the answer. I was listing the pros and cons. I tried to meditate, only to find peace for a very short time. I over-analyzed possible scenarios. I cried. I tried to connect with the spirits and angels around me, but I could not hear them. I went ups and downs with my decision. My energy was all over the place, while I was waiting for THE light bulb moment. My energy was hot. It was cold. I was pushing. I was pulling. Nothing worked. I was not connected to the Universe.
Until the fourth person in a row told me: “Essi, I think you have made your decision”. I replied immediately, almost as if I was in hurry, “I have, but am still struggling to accept it”. That was the moment I stopped everything I was doing. I realized how I was creating a difficult story in my head with the words “STRUGGLING to ACCEPT”. I wanted to be the answer and let go of struggle. So I had to change the story I told myself. I stopped the push-pull. I stopped analyzing and went for a long walk to the sunny forest.
Deep in the forest, I surrendered.
I let go of the outcome and accepted whichever would arrive. Took deep breaths in and out. I smelled the pine trees and heard the gentle waves of the lake nearby. Then from somewhere deep a voice within asked me, what is success in life for me? And found the following answer: success is growth while maintaining my happiness and love within.
From this surrender, I finally accepted what I deep down had already chosen. I finally had my moment of clarity.
I chose the path that pushes me to grow as a human being while I maintain my wellbeing.
My dear soul, remember that you are the story you tell yourself. Next time when your ego comes into the decision-making process, it is best to let go of the topic for a while and simply to step out of it. The clarity will arrive - if you create space for the voice within to speak.
Essi Koski-Lammi
Essi Koski-Lammi is an Inner Alignment Coach, Intuitive Healer, Channeler, and Interior Designer who started studying energy work and life coaching over 20 years ago. Now, she helps New Earth Creators create a conscious lifestyle to find their way home to themselves and unleash their true nature for life without limits. In her approach, she also brings her interior design skills into play, helping her clients create a home aligned with heart and soul.
